Two hearts. Separation Trauma: a neurological bloodbath.
One big heart and one incomplete small heart. The outcome of this painting was not intentional. A
lot of crying took place when I was making this piece, despite the brief peaceful calming process video I shared. Maybe that video was representative of what adoptees are conditioned by society to show you instead of what we really feel subconsciously. For a long time I didn’t know what I really felt (because I wasn’t given the language), so I binge drank, over ate or didn’t eat.
I view my birth and separation from my biological mother as an early death. My personality never formed without a major trauma being present. I have nothing to heal back to. Instead of a cord being cut, I feel our brains and bodies were severed from each other. I was never fed breast milk or cared for by my own DNA so my immune system and genetic expression are poor. My gut health, which is my second brain is in constant peril.
This came from my psyche and I went through emotional hell for about a week after this was done. Again, thank you to my friends who have been a support system for me. You’re the best. I think I’m still coming out of “the fog” from adoption and parental narcissistic abuse and I don’t think that will ever be over.
Context to my work ♥️♥️
Emily Alber Art
30x48
Ceramic Stucco & Acrylic
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