Grace means you are no longer looking for an outside source of light; you have become the source of light.
Walk around, realizing the smallness of who you are – small is not nothing, but small is near enough. You do not have to pretend that you are small because you actually are a miniscule element. You are just pretending to be big. If you stop all your pretension, you are available to Grace.
It is just that you are expecting grace to fulfill your plans. This is the old habit of going to the temple or church and telling God what he must do. If he does not do it, you will change your God.
Grace is not about fulfilling your petty plans. Anyway, your plans keep changing. At different stages in your life, you thought “this is it” and the next moment you changed your decision. You want to go on vacation, so you ask, “Sadhguru, why are you not helping me?” Do not keep questioning this every other day, “Is grace with me? Is it not with me?” A Guru’s grace is not designed to fulfill your plans; a Guru's grace is designed to fulfill life's plan. To make you, a piece of life, arrive at its fulfillment.