home !!!! 🫗🪺🍓🪷🔪
we made a movie 2.5 years ago, and today you can go watch it in a movie theatre ! i have no words for how much i love this film as a fan, and how happy i am to have been involved in it in any capacity. @bjnovak is a genius and i would have been happy getting his groceries for him but getting to work along side him and see him in full force every day was one of the highlights of my career. it’s singular experiences like these that are the ones you dream about for your “one day” life !! thank you @bjnovak for absolutely blowing the comedy genre out of the water and allowing us to pretend to have anything to do with it. also, @finneas scored it all on his own and did it impeccably, @issarae is charisma powerhouse movie magic, @boydholbrook is a next level comedy revelation and @aplusk makes the whole film for me. it’s so great to work with your friends !! run don’t walk @vengeancefilm 🫂
bye 👋🏻 🇨🇦! i’m back to la after 3 months & i wish i could show you more of what’s to come of this incredible season but it’s all too sexy and forbidden. i love my show . i love my cast. i cherish my time tucked away from the world here. thank you thank you thank you . for this life in general, out to the world. the gratitude and love is so deep it’s hollowed me out. as it does . OK now it’s time to go write this fuuuuuucking album
im begging you to read this in its entirety.
“it will not be hard for the anti-abortion movement to accept these deaths as a tragic, even noble consequence of womanhood itself.”
TONIGHT
thank you for having me @iheartradio for your can’t cancel pride event🌈🌈🌈🫶🏻 such a wonderful day . and thank you to my amazing dancers @autumnmiller @lonniolson , you guys made the show 🍰💕🍯
beautiful weekend at @tribeca for @vengeancefilm in this glorious 1997 archive gianni @versace . what a dream 🖤
somewhere unnamed , these moments are all still occurring for the first time, for the millionth time, in real time and all at once, just as real as i remember them “then”. you are here, still. we feel you, still. i will love you, unchangingly, just like this. happy birthday.
today you guys officially got boyfriend to over 200m streams, to # 3 at radio and somehow made her the most streamed female solo release of 2022...!!!!!! i’ve run out of words to express my shock/gratitude. i love you so much thank you thank you thank you 👹🫶🏻 now go pre save breakfast cause i might just drop her when the spirit takes me & not tell anyone
we filmed this pre-pandemic and now you will finally be able to see it which is breaking my brain. i’m so proud of this insane film and i am equally proud to work with the most unreal combination of friends. @bjnovak is a genius and we are all so lucky ! out july 29th 🫶🏻
is it not soul-crushingly hypocritical to spout pro life rhetoric but be vehemently anti gun regulation? does this not click, as the most embarrassing and revealing admission of hypocrisy and standing for nothing but your own selfish gain? if “this isn’t a gun problem, it’s a mental health problem”, why have you done nothing to help EITHER ? the manipulation is thick. gaslighting the fucking country.
please work with me on these actionnables, they are so simple and impactful. inconceivable we have to FORCE our elected leaders to do their job??? but here’s how:
-text: ACT to 644-33
-donate to Everytown for gun safety, no amount is too small and we’re making serious headway!! linked in my profile.
-donate, sign petitions, call and text with BRADY to help pass HR8. link in bio.
we can think & pray & take moments of silence, and STILL ENACT POLICY AND CHANGE. don’t let these egomaniacs convince you otherwise while we are losing flesh & blood humans. act with love, act with screaming pain, act with ACTION.
identity vs the self !!! depression & dysphoria. the self is someone i feel i have always deeply known, someone i deeply love and protect, like my own child, i know this self and we are very close. for me, identity and the self have always been diametrically opposed, and there has only ever been room for one at a time to occupy my life. i have never been able to make them hold hands, and i realize as i get older, its because i hold a deep seeded belief that who i am is wrong, i am not allowed to be just as i am, i am not meant to be here. i feel i must be something else if i am going to be allowed to be here. and i really do wanna be here with you.
more days than not, i feel pulled towards no identity at all, i feel most natural as something imperceivable to myself, an energy and a presence. i don’t know if i will ever be able to live as this, if i will ever find a rhythm in this job where perception is one of the major cornerstones. so far, the self and the identity seem to harm each other, in my personal experience. i’m feeling it out. and if you are too, we can do it together. the longer i’m alive, the more i realize these inner dialogues are actually pretty universal.
❤️🩹all that i am truly clear on is that i’m interested in a life unburdened by myself. easier in theory than in practice, but we’re making room. ❤️🩹
i am beginning to have a hope that the public platform that has been difficult for me to learn to take up space as myself in, can actually be the conduit for change/mutual support/exploration/safety. there is room for us to talk about the things that terrify us/can’t be commoditized on a large scale, that can’t be commercialized and easily sound-bitten. maybe the spaces that are the least human can become the most human, if we want that, and we can all let each other take up a little more space. i love you
a few human moments. 💔->❤️🩹
sometimes she femme 🪷