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20 was for removing the guard rails, for the graceful swan dive into What’s the Worst that Could Happen, for the gorgeous place before What’s the Worst that could happen becomes the Worst that could happen, for if not then when, for it’s really yours now, for negotiating place, for the ache of home, for the realization of I Can’t Take You With Me, for coming into Oh So That’s What that Feels Like, for the cadence of the city, for the club floor, for the dinner table, for going, for doing, for returning, for a continued becoming. I get rejected by 4 different bouncers and throw a pre adult tantrum just days before my 21st birthday. These events are unrelated to one another. Today, champagne out of the bottle or in the lemonade sippy cup to pregame Best Buy. The 4th grader on a leash and the strip mall frappuccino make my day. Talismanic lines play on my mind: I change in the sameness of change. I embrace the night and get gone.