@marybehindthechair

Outside of my meetings, I have spent the last two years in silence. I haven’t listened to music or watched TV. Why? Because I needed to reset myself entirely. Music always transfers us to the past, and has the ability to manipulate our feelings at any moment. I needed my own voice to be the loudest one in my head. I wanted to go back to my young self- the curious 7 year old who loved to play in the woods, swim in lakes, rescue baby birds and search for arrowheads for hours on end. I have forced my mind to stay entirely focused on only the present with no distractions other than the sounds of nature. This sense of being entirely at one with only myself and nature has been a godsend. I have been able to slow down and listen to this little girl’s feelings. Her hopes and dreams. I spent decades slamming the door on her when she would come calling. And this time, I went looking for her. She has woken up and I am forever grateful to meet her once again.